A Gift of Color and Light

It’s evening now, but I took this photo this morning. I missed the moment I wanted to capture by the time I fumbled with my tablet and stepped outside. One of those God-given instances that goes by so quickly you better capture it in your heart, because there is no time for anything else.

When I first laid eyes upon the above scene this morning, all the trees were the color of black cherries and the sky the faintest mauve. It stopped me in my tracks.

I was disappointed I couldn’t save the vision to share, but the experience sent me into an impromptu art history lesson.

I remembered that a French artist painted the same cathedral over and over in different light and weather conditions, but which artist? Thank you, internet, I knew you were good for something! It turned out to be Claude Monet and the series he painted was of the Rouen Cathedral in Normandy.

Studying those computer images of the paintings, I noted that they are at many different locations. It’s a shame they can’t all be together. At least four are at the Musee d’Orsay in Paris, though. I had wanted to visit that museum when I had the wonderful luck to go spend a week in Paris about eight years ago, but we couldn’t work it into our schedule backyard4marr1618

I tried to catch the same backyard view I had this morning when I got home from work around four-thirty. Not as dramatic as Monet’s paintings, but I wanted to get in the spirit of his idea.

There is something very comforting to me that the familiar site of the sky and the trees in the yard are always different and always a surprise.

Making a Mess in the Kitchen

The mess in the kitchen can wait a few minutes while I spend some time writing about it. It’s bonus for my morning when two of my favorite activities get together and boost the mood of my day.

My first inkling of the “joy of cooking” was a Christmas present I received in the mail from a family friend. I was eight years old, and the gift was Mary Alden’s Cookbook for Children.

Yes, I still remember the name of the book. It remained in my possession for many years, probably until the thin paper-bound cookbook fell apart with age if not from embedded grease and flour.

When I first got the book, it was mostly the source of unfulfilled fantasy. I spent hours poring over such recipes as “Eskimo cookies,” “Bearded Baked Potatoes,” and a cake from scratch with pink strawberry icing.

That was a busy time for my mom, as she was preparing for a big cross-country move and had four-year-old and two-year-old besides me and my older brother. So there wasn’t much chance to try out the inviting adventure of measuring and mixing and coming up with the promised products.

But I kept reading my cookbook with hope and imagination, including the thought of being able to cut out the certificate in the back proclaiming me “Clean Kitchen Cook” after I did all the required washing up and sweeping and putting away ingredients.

Uh-oh. Maybe I better stop and clean my kitchen before I continue writing. Right. Who am I kidding?

I did finally get to try out some of the recipes in the children’s cookbook, though it was at least two years later and in my friends’ kitchens where apparently no one cared if we made a mess. I especially remember the cake with its purple icing because we had substitute grape jelly for the strawberry.

I have never tired of reading cookbooks, and when I get going on a project, a mess is bound to ensue.

This morning’s project started with cookbook browsing last night. The browsing was prompted by a need to adjust my breakfast-eating habits to accommodate my new working schedule. I’m not working today, but on days when I do, I need to leave at ten o’clock and get home three-thirty or four, with no lunch period in an adjustable shift amounting to about four hours.

My first week, I tried waiting until about eight thirty before eating anything, then making something more akin to dinner than breakfast. This provided me with the fuel I needed, but did not sit well with my digestive system or my biological clock.

For this week, I am trying for more more traditional breakfast fare closer to my rising time, and then drinking a nutrition shake right before leaving for work. When I get home, I will have an early dinner.

Back in the kitchen this morning, I made corn cakes with raspberry compote with two strips of microwaveable bacon on the side. I made enough corn cakes for two days, so I will be able to warm up the leftovers tomorrow morning.

As usually happens, I learned a couple things while experimenting with a recipe.

The first was a moment of “Why have I never thought of this before?” The compote called for lemon zest, just a small amount. I grabbed the grater and the lemon I luckily found in the back of the fridge and started scraping. When I had enough zest, my yellow lemon had only a small white scar on its skin. I was about to slice into it to get the tablespoon of juice I also needed when it occurred to me to scrape off the rest of the zest and save it in the freezer.

Okay, so I am easily excited over odd little personal breakthroughs. This bit with saving the rest of the lemon zest was such an “aha moment” for me that I wanted to jump onto Facebook and share this amazing bit of news. Everything else I have had to say here sprang from that original impulse to share my joy.

Anyway, the other thing I learned was that I need to use gluten-free pancake mix instead of just GF flour the next time I make corn cakes. They didn’t much look like the fluffy cookbook picture. Instead, they gave new meaning to the phrase “flat as a pancake.” This is a hazard in converting regular recipes to my celiac needs.

I’ll do better next time. Now I’ll go clean the kitchen and see if I can earn the “Clean Kitchen Cook” award.

Dreaming in Color

I woke up ready to write this morning, and instead spent nearly a half-hour staring at my screen waiting for Norton to fix error 3039,1. At least I am seated facing my window that looks out into the backyard.

The sky behind the web of bare tree limbs and branches is a subtle variation of grays.

I particularly noticed the sky color when I opened the blinds because I had just awakened from a dream that included a perfectly clear turquoise sky. It wasn’t an entire sky so much as it was an open doorway in which my dad was standing. The sky included the doorway shape as well as the shape of a door opening out from it. When Dad finished talking, he turned and walked back through the portal and closed the door behind him.

The conversation between Dad and me was short and gave me some food for thought, but I will save that for my personal journal. What I want to talk about here is how some dreams seem to be a mishmash of recent impressions the mind is sorting out, while others are fraught with symbolism, or give us the gift of the palpable presence of someone we have lost, or signal something is happening to someone close to us.

I say “us”, but of course I am only sharing my own personal experience.

Maybe for me, color is something my mind knows will grab my attention. If there has been some outstanding splash of color surrounding a dream image, I wake up with it and it stays with me all day as I mull it over in my mind.

There have been two or three times when I have awakened realizing I have been dreaming in black and white, and the uniqueness of those events also remained with me during my waking hours.

Some people have told me that they never dream. I cannot begin to get my mind around that concept. To me, a vivid dream is an unexpected treat. Each one is a work of art created just for my viewing.

Last night I got to spend a little quality time with my dad, and got to view some things through his unique sense of humor. Whatever dreams are made of, they wind up stored in my memory along with “real” experiences.

I believe it has been determined that small children cannot distinguish between dreams and reality. Maybe there is more significance to this observation than its simply being a stage of development. Maybe Jung’s idea of collective consciousness has something to it. Maybe dreams are a link between the spiritual and physical.

Or, maybe not.

Even if they are only ever a construct of my own brain, I am always grateful for a colorful and memorable dream.